Today, Tomorrow, and The Next. and then some random babble about my life...

I'm so tired of this blog thing. I should have read how stupid these all were before I committed to it. Blech. But anyway... here we go.

Day Whatever. Something that makes your face look like this: :D!!!! or :) or 8D (which is my personal favorite)


Stupid memories of stupid things. And technical theatre. And theatre in general. :)


These girls right here. (sorry you're only in part of the picture katie... my pics are still being uploaded onto this computer so I don't have a lot to choose from.) They make me so ridiculously happy you can't even imagine it.


Peter Pan. You may say I'm stuck in the past... but Pan was one of the most fun experiences of my life thus far. And it helped me make some of my bestest friends. And I don't just love my time in Pan itself. I love the story. The message. Everything. :) Tootles. (even the crazy version of old Tootles in Hook! Or maybe I should say especially that Tootles.)


And last, but definitely not least, these people right here. Without them I would not be who or where I am today. I never would have survived my first year of college... or my second... without them. I love them so ridiculously much. And it makes me happy to see who they are becoming (even though we can't hang out every day) and to see them make good choices (like Nate and Dallon serving missions).


Day... whatever again. A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

Yo. Stop being a BRAT FACE and GET OVER YOURSELF. Just some words of advice.

That's it.


And the day after that.
1. FACT. I'm obsessed with Peter Pan. :)
2. FACT. I act really confident but inside I'm really just a girl who thinks she's fat, not usually good enough, is not very confident, and is actually really lonely.
3. FACT. I've never said fact number two to anyone before.
4. FACT. I really hate being here (except for school) and I sometimes wonder if I made the wrong choice by coming here.
5. FACT. I very rarely say what's actually on my mind and I tell you what you want to hear instead of what I really think.
6. FACT. I'm not a very open person and don't feel like there is anyone I can tell everything to... not even my closest friends, even though sometimes I want to.
7. FACT. I am really struggling with the fact that I'm actually putting all this stuff on here (closed person, remember) and really wouldn't be surprised if this post just... disappeared... after a few days.
8. FACT. I am terrified of seagulls... and most other birds... and it does not stem from watching the movie "The Birds."
9. FACT. I LOOOOVE Culinary School... except for baking.
10. FACT. I am really easily annoyed by stupid things... like people who don't change the toilet paper roll, use "like," "totally," or "dude" too often, or who can dish it but can't take it.
11. FACT. I really hate that I am annoyed by stupid things. It makes me feel like a bad person.
12. FACT. I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE it when people say rude things about fat people or gay people. And I don't hate that I get annoyed by that and don't consider it a stupid thing.
13. FACT. I love making fresh pasta. To me, it is probably one of the most rewarding things. It may take all day, but I feel really accomplished when I'm done... and it's a great stress reliever.
14. FACT. I really wish I was artistic. At all.
15. FACT. I really miss Katie Matheson, Courtney Cook, Katie Martin, Abi Griffiths, Steven Conway, Dallon Holloway, Justin Cummings, Nate Burton, and all my other friends that I never get to see anymore. :( A LOT. You guys are the best.



And now... about my life...
Yesterday. I carved a pumpkin. It looks AWFUL. I'm pretty sure Courtney Cook only knew what it was because she just knows I'm obsessed with Peter Pan. Yeah. That's what it was supposed to be. It was an epic epic epic fail.
I made a Rufio costume. I think it's pretty cool. Now I just need a chance to wear it. I have absolutely NO PLANS this Halloween. None Today. None Yesterday. None Tomorrow. Nothing. I miss actually having friends. I just feel like I'm doing nothing with my life and going nowhere right now. Yes, I know I am in school... but other than that... I do nothing. I sit at home and watch movies all day. I don't hang out with anyone. I don't have friends. Nothing. I feel like I'm wasting away here and don't know what to do about it. By this time last year... I had made great friends. ...Even in less time. And now... I don't know what to do. I miss having people and friends in my life.
Sorry about that little rant... I'm just lonely. Blah.